This might not in the right catagory, please forgive me. I just want to have more perspective from the different people.

And I choose to use english because it's more direct and not too much emotional as to described in Thai language.
It's quite long and broken some. please forgive and open your mind to read.

และ...สามารถตอบเป็นภาษาไทยก็ได้ค่ะ

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[Spoil] คลิกเพื่อดูข้อความที่ซ่อนไว้
I'm in love and to be loved by 2 guys who is very different.

First is my ex boyfriend - 26, 2 yrs older than me. We were together for 5 yrs -on and off, never off longer than 2 months. After last time breaking up. He was n still making himself better, try to be more mature and try to get back to me. He's never cheat or lie or bully me and love me a lot.

The reason we broke up is he is not mature enough to understand my problem when I want someone to talk to or discuss with. It's mostly about my family, work and financial problem. But now after I came back to talk, seems like he's more reasonable, better listener and adapt himself for me - as I did a lot before. So it's like would be a good chance and a lot different, in a better way, to get back together again. Anyway, After 4-5 times on and off, I'm now, kind of, love him lesser than I was.

Second is the person I met while I was breaking with the first. He is 42, 18 yrs older than me. He went to my country for his friend's wedding. We met in the coffee shop and It's like a soul connecting between us. We met only 2-3 times and never have sex. He is very mature (of cause) and good adviser. After his friend's wedding, he went back to his country. but we always text and call. He is single and very good person. I ve already check and this's true.

The problem is we have to do the distance for a year and half. And as I would like to success on my career, I'm not ready to get married and stay with him as he's ready. And I'm not sure to do distance like for more 2 yrs. It's too torture and I sometimes need a "skin ship" to cheer me up. Also, even we were together, I'm not sure that we would have a happy marriage life. Because we actually never have chance to do a real date.

How should I do? I need someone to be by my side. I may looks very strong but, for me actually, boyfriend is something very important to have.

PS. Skin ship is of cause not about making love.


Thank you for your time in advance.